Despise the Son

last bottom standing

THE FUCKING CURSE
Posted:Oct 3, 2020 8:02 pm
Last Updated:Nov 8, 2022 11:11 pm
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Darkness descends with false euphoria
gusta tanto ponder un monumento memoria
What was once vanilla and easy to obtain
Has now become Dirty and so fucking hard to explain
cursed ,wanting to be taken by force not desire
But One can be taken when the enforcer you require
Picked out your heels skirt and bra with underwire
Now The curse with submission must be in female attire
Admission of guilt will make your sins worse
Submission complete now begin the curse
Unique your not or even special
So many like you there’s even porns that’s influential
Your a man so masculine and you will always stink
Hiding in shame for you want to be pink
So now it’s out there, and so pointless to stop
Because your one of a thousand bottoms looking for one Top
Total Bottoms n sissy’s everywhere you look
Now feeling really stupid for all the ass pics you took
Curious at first then euphoric the search
So filthy it seemed better to avoid the church
So common today it’s almost implied
But Sometimes I wish Bruce Jenner had died
Of course your not gay if he’s a woman inside
I looked up sissy boy and just about died, cried
And now my butthole hurts inside
I look at the page and only bottoms I see
Begging some fucking douchebag to please attention
That Top over there who’s smoke you just blew he’s
Actually a bottom just more clever than “You”
Are too fat you are too thin is that grey in your hair.?
Your too old your too young you better be smooth Or I swear
Your way to hairy with no mounds just almond joy
Cuz you know Everyone prefers the skin of a young hairless boy
Such an asshole the Dom so full of self admiration
Trying to revive his high school bully manipulation
The sexy photo you sent,never seen in his reply
The asshole never looked, why?
Because from a single post he got thousands to reply
Why treat you nice when there’s an endless supply
So I’m just another sissy bottom alone without a host
So this swan song will stay as my last sissy post.
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IT GETS EASIER
Posted:Jun 23, 2017 4:11 pm
Last Updated:Aug 4, 2023 1:11 am
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SO... IVE BEEN A STANDARD MEMBER AND PAID MEMBER OVER MORE YEARS THAN ID LIKE TO ADMIT, FROM THE DIAL UP DAYS WHEN I WAS A AND GETTING TO SEE PICTURES OF SOME OF THE HOTEST KINKIEST DOMS FEMS AND TRANNIES THAT GOT MY DICK ROCK HARD WHICH FOLLOWED ME THROUGH MOST OF MY LIFE. I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE FOUND ALT EARLY IN LIFE AS MY SEXUAL TASTES WERE STARTING TO MAKE A FEEL A LITTLE GUILTY, LIKE JERKING OFF UNDER A BLANKET SO GOD COULDNT SEE ME. THE GUILT AND SHAME I FELT WITH THE CATHOLIC UPBRINGING AND NO IDEA WHY I WAS HAVING THE ERDGE TO STICK MY COCK IN A TRANNY WAS EXTREMELY CONFUSING, I MEAN SHIT, THEY WERE HOTTER LOOKING THAN MOST WOMAN ID BEEN WITH AND IN EVERY OTHER WAY VERY FEMININE, BUT THE FACT THAT THEY HAD A COCK JUST GOT ME SO HOT AND CONFUSED AT THE SAME TIME THAT I SPENT MANY MONTHS THINKING I WAS A REALLY FUCKED UP PERSON.. TOOK A FEW YEARS TO RELAX AND BE OK WITH MYSELF AND THOSE YEARS WERE SPENT FUCKING OFF ON ALT.COM. YEAH AT FIRST I WAS THE TYPICAL GUY SENDING FLIRTS AND TRYING TO GET LAID ON HERE THINKING THIS SHOULD BE EASY BUT SO MANY DUMB ASS GUYS BEFORE ME HAD ALREADY PAVED THE WAY FOR WHAT NOT TO SAY TO WOMEN ONLINE THAT IF YOU ACTUALLY THINK YOUR GOING TO GET A PIECE OF ASS ON HERE RIGHT OUT THE GATE YOUR SURLEY GOING TO HAVE YOUR EGO POUNDED BY SOME OF THE HOTEST WOMEN ONLINE, SHIT THE WOMEN ON HERE CAN SMELL YOUR DUMB ASS COMING TEN MINUTES BEFORE YOU EVEN LOGGED ON. SO AFTER A COUPLE ROUGH MONTHS I PICKED MY SLIGHTLY BRUSED EGO OFF THE FLOOR AND SPENT MANY NIGHTS ACTUALLY READING PROFILES AND HOLY FUCK WATCHING MEMBER VIDEOS, SHIT A COUPLE WEEKS JERKING OFF TO SOME OF THE BEST HOMEADE FILTH AND HARDCORE VIDEOS THAT I HAD NEVER SEEN BEFORE MAKES A GUY THINK " HEY, MAYBE IM NOT SO FUCKED UP AFTER ALL, I MEAN IM INTO SOME PRETTY KINKY SHIT NOW BUT NOTHING COMPARED TO THE AWESOME FILTH IN THE MEMBER VIDEOS., I MEAN DAMN SOME OF THE THINGS PEOPLE ARE INTO WILL JUST MAKE YOUR HAIR STAND ON END BUT THATS OK, I MAY NOT BE INTO IT BUT ILL SURE AS FUCK WATCH IT, BIG UPS TO THE PEOPLE WHO POST NASTY ASS VIDEOS ON HERE, I LOVE IT AND WILL CONTINUE TO SUPPORT YOU AND NEVER MAKE A MOTHERFUCKER FEEL GUILTY ABOUT WHAT GETS YOUR ROCKS OFF, I MEAN I SAW A GUY ON HERE WITH HIS FACE BEHIND A TOILET SEAT FOR HIS PROFILE PIC AND AS IVE HAD TO EAT SHIT MANY TIMES IN MY LIFE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND LOVED ONES, NOT THAT KIND, NOT THAT KIND, BUT IF YOU LIKE SHIT, HEY ITS FINE NO JUDGMENT HERE. JUST MAKE SURE YOU BRUSH YOUR TEETH AFTER CUZ YOUR BREATH SMELLS LIKE YOU HAD A SHIT SANDWICH FOR LUNCH..LOL I WILL BE MAKING AND POSTING SOME ADULT ABUSE SOON, MY TASTE HAS GROWN MANY TIMES OVER AS I GET OLDER BUT ITS OK AS IT GETS EASIER AND A HAPPY SEX LIFE IS A HAPPY HUMAN...,,,m
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THE FUCKING CURSE
Posted:Oct 3, 2020 10:21 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2023 9:58 pm
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Darkness descends with false euphoria
gusta tanto ponder un monumento memoria
What was once vanilla and easy to obtain
Has now become Dirty and so fucking hard to explain
cursed ,wanting to be taken by force not desire
But One cant be taken when the aggressor you require
Picked your heels skirt and bra with underwire
Now The curse with submission must be in female attire
Admission of guilt will make your sins worse
Submission complete now begin the curse
Unique your not or even special
So many like you there’s even porns that’s influential
Your a man so masculine and you will always stink
Hiding in shame for you want to be pink
So now it’s there, and so pointless to stop
Because your one of a thousand bottoms looking for one Top
Total Bottoms n sissy’s everywhere you look
Now feeling really for all the ass pics you took
Curious first then euphoric the search
So filthy it seemed better to avoid the church
So common today it’s almost implied
But Sometimes I wish Bruce Jenner had died
Of course your not gay if he’s a woman inside
I looked up sissy and just about died, cried
And now my butthole hurts inside
I the page and only bottoms I see
Begging some fucking douchebag to please attention to
That Top over there who’s smoke you just blew he’s
Actually a bottom just more clever than “You”
Are too fat you are too thin is that grey in your hair.?
Your too your too you better be smooth Or I swear
Your way to hairy with no mounds just almond joy
Cuz you know Everyone prefers the skin of a hairless
Such an asshole the Dom so full of self admiration
Trying to revive his bully manipulation
The sexy photo you sent never seen in his reply
The asshole never looked, why?
Because from a single post he got thousands to reply
Why treat you nice when there’s an endless supply
So I’m just another sissy bottom alone without a host
So this swan song will stay as my last sissy post....
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ANYTHING STILL NOTHING
Posted:Sep 30, 2017 1:53 am
Last Updated:Nov 2, 2022 4:16 am
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My heart is still breaking, but now in public my eyes show the aching.
Another day goes by proving I can live without you , only
kicking and screaming , please god, but I don't want too.!!

Because no matter where I am , I'm only faking
Smiling on the outside while my heart is breaking
Because no matter where I am,  I'm only faking
And  every time I see you , My heart starts aching

Avoiding all the roads we used to travel on,
wont pass by your house  and check if the lights are on
And For every ghost and memory you left behind
I must close my eyes so not to remind
Me, myself and the one I still adore
Now walk away strangers and chose me to ignore

Because no matter where I am or what thinking
I'm Set adrift  and now the ships sinking
Because no matter where I am or what I'm wishing
It's the one thing my heart still knows ,is missing

So I lay awake at night, wishing that you missed me
Something I could have said or done , before the day you left me.
Over and over it just repeats in my head
Why don't you want me and how pathetic for being said
But if I don't get it out and at the least put to bed
Then my broken heart died without a word being said
So it's  too late baby yeah it's to late
Yes this songs about you so I'm sure you cant relate

Because no matter where I am or what thinking
I'm Set adrift  and now the ships sinking
Because no matter where I am or what I'm wishing
It's the one thing my heart still knows ,is missing

Because no matter where I am , I'm only faking
Smiling on the outside while my heart is aching
Because no matter where I am, don't be mistaking
That every time I see you, My heart is breaking.
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ANYTHING
Posted:Jul 17, 2017 11:20 am
Last Updated:Nov 3, 2022 8:59 pm
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Just one last time , I'll spill some tears
Always self inflicted and days still feel like years
All the social media still shows a smiling face
Some interesting location and faking bullshit on my face.
I have to let go of something,
that let go of me a long time ago
I thought just loosening my grip was enough,
maybe because I was hoping what slipped through my fingers
would reach out again
Or maybe i just won't believe that the story had to end
And even though it's the one thing I can't imagine living without
It's fucking happening anyway , causing so much doubt that I'm forced to let go, let it go let it go, I fucking have to say goodbye even though,
my hearts not telling me so so so fuck please just go away, but it's
all just lies because I'd kill for you to say,................
Anything......
I can't ever remember a time whenI I wanted something so bad
Sad that it consumes my life. ,Every moment of every day I'm thinking
about it in some way. The want to lay down and cry , I'm just
on the belief ,you won't say goodbye ,wondering if there was
some words to say that would change your mind and want me to stay,
pray pray for
God ignores the words I say, so I lay, waiting as if time was on my side
Convincing myself it's another dream that died, to myself and the one
who knows how to fix me , but the lies I use are the reason she will
Forget me.
Please please please just make this go away, I would have burned a
Thousand churches
Just to hear her say,....
Anything.........
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