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Posted:Jun 13, 2016 11:41 am
Last Updated:Jun 25, 2017 4:38 pm
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These messages will be private ... set up for those who can't email or standard members ... only between me and you... No worries ... ask Me anything ....
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Stuck In The VANILLA WORLD....
Posted:Jun 28, 2017 3:53 am
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2017 7:08 pm
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.....AND LOVING EVERY SECOND !!!!

Yep.... I Have Found A Man ,,,, So Compassionate,,, Such a Beatiful Human Being ... and I Am Completely Satisfied With a Vanilla Man ... with a Side of Kink ...

I'll Tell the Story When I Get My Laptop Up and Running....

WE Finally Consummated Our Relationship,,, I know ... I Was Beginning To Think He Wasn't Attracted To Me ....
But ,,, I See His Admiration in His Face ... Amazing ...
He Treats Like a Queen ..... His Temperment is So Much Different Than Any Other Man I've Ever Known .... He Makes Me Laugh From Sun Up To Sun Down ! I Can Tell Him Anything .... He Does Not Get Upset , Perturbed or Indifferent....

BEST OF ALL ..... He Loves My Cooking ,,, He Says I Can Have At It !!! Yeah !!! I Am In Heaven ... !!

He Absolutely Appreciates Everything I Do ... !!!

I've Never Left Here Since I Came Over Last Thursday !😃
I'm TOTALLY Comfortable .... Totally Happy and Content ... No Stress ...

There Was One Catch ... He Absolutely Refused To Be My Sex Toy .... Lol ... He Insisted On Intimacy First ... !!!
Wow 😚
Who Knew I Needed That .... Lol
I am Running Behind... Just Wanted To Fill Everyone in ...
I'll Write More Later ,,, Maybe ... 😋

You,,,so called... Sirs and Masters ,, Could Learn A Lot From This Little,, Skinny ,,Tattooed,,, Vanilla Guy 😉

I'm on Cloud Nine . ... I. REALLY,,,,Really... Really ... Like Him And I Think He Really Likes Me... I See It ,,, Feel It ,,, Live It ,,, LOVE It ... I Will Always Be Grateful To Him For Making Me Feel Again ,,, Feel From My Insides.. which were so very Empty ... For So Very Long 😕 ,,, Which I've Hidden So Well 😋
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INTIMACY ..... STAY THE DISTANCE...
Posted:Jun 22, 2017 4:18 am
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2017 3:53 am
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Certain Things Make Us Realize .... It's The Intimacy Involved... That Holds Us Back ..... Certain Things Kinda ' Require ' Intimacy ,,,,

Well... More Closeness than Normal ...

So... I've Noticed My Brain ...or Mind ... Or Heart ( deep in there ) ... BLOCKS Certain Things....

Yet... another ' Issue '... I May Be Forced To Deal With ... This Guy Wants to Get Really ' Close ' ..... He's Not ' Pushy ' at All.... It's Just Something Is ' Strongly ' PULLING Me Back .... Possibly that Little Devil On My Shoulder ...

I Can't Even Tell You How Many Years I've Been Avoiding .... and Never Had any Problem..... Is it necessary ? 😕

I'm Thinking This Guy Is Wanting It More Than Most ... He May Be A Challenge ...
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SomeBody's Gonna Need To Be Patient....
Posted:Jun 22, 2017 3:43 am
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2017 3:54 am
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I Have a bit of a problem.... Well.... Lucy and Desi ... have a Bit Of A Problem...

I Didn't Think It Important enough... to Mention How Spoiled My Puppies are... Who Would Have thought that Their Cute Little Faces Wouldn't Get Them Everything They Wanted ?

I'm Just Not Sure How To Break It To Them.... They are Gonna Have to Sleep On the Floor Saturday Night....

This Guy Refuses Any Dogs In The Bed...
I Mean... I thought Because His Dog Is a Big Dog ( Jim Floyd ..lol ) That's Why He Made Him Sleep On the Floor ... but ...

Absolutely ... NO DOGS IN BED .... Oh Boy....
My Poor Little Guys ... They are Doxis.... They Like to Cuddle ... Who Could Resist ?

I Tried .... He Said Absolutely .. No Dogs In Bed.... Omg...

I am Not Sure What I'm Gonna Do With Them ... I know as Soon as He closes His Eyes .... they Will Sneak up in that Bed ... and I don't wanna Tie Them Up ...

They're Gonna Have to Pour on The Charm ... I'm Not Sure This Guy Is Gonna Change His Mind .... Jim Floyd Is Kinda Big ... Maybe They Can Snuggle Up To Him ... Not Like It Happens Every Day ...

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BAD BOY Image ....
Posted:Jun 21, 2017 4:39 am
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2017 3:54 am
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I Had To Laugh At Myself .... Thinking Dad Would Be Rolling In His Grave .... Knowing I'm Messin' With A Man That Looks Like Such a Bad Boy....!!

We Were Brought Up So Narrow Minded ... More From My Mother's Side Than My Father' s .....

My Mother Was Pure German .... My Father Pure Polish ...
My Mother Hated Anyone That Was Not Caucasian.... I Remember My Father Actually Rescuing a Black Guy ( That He Had Called To Pick Up A Junk Car ) that My Mother Had ' Released ' Our Dogs On..... Horrific ...

Now ... I'm Sure It Was Just In-bedded In Her From The Mother That Raised Her.... My Grandmother Could've Been Hitler's Mother .... She Referred to Us Half Polish Grandkids as ' Little Bitches ' .... that's really all I remember Of Her.. Interesting Story How She Died ... Though... Talk About KARMA.... I'll tell you some day...lol..

Anyway ... We Were Led to Believe... Like Almost Every Girl..... that The Bad Boy Type Are Nothing But Trouble.... Avoid At All Costs... You Will End Up In Hell... Well.. You Get The Drift ...

I... Being the ' Daddy's ' girl that I Was .... Never Wanted to See Disappointment On My Dad's Face ....

As I Think About It Now .... He'd Probably Have That Little Smirk On His Face ... Knowing I've Always Been the ' Rebel ' .... Always Did Things My Way ... Never Caring How People Think .... I Actually Believe He'd Be Happy That I'm Looking After My Own Happiness ..... Always Proud ... I Take After Him ...

In Real Life .... Him and My Mother Would Be Having a Big Drag Out Fight .... Her Telling Him to Whoop My Ass .... Him Walking Away ....
Dad Never Whooped Me ....
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I AM WHO I AM....
Posted:Jun 21, 2017 2:55 am
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2017 4:50 pm
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You Know ... I'm Far From Perfection .... I Have Many Differences Than Others .... Not Only Am I A Bit Particular In My Choice Of Men.... I Prefer a Man To Be Totally Comfortable With Me ... I'm Sure Some Are Not ....

Not Only Do I Kinda Speak My Mind ... I Have Certain Desires / Needs That ...Like I Had Mentioned Before ... I Don't Wanna Settle On...

While Chatting With My New ' Friend ' .... I Wanted To Make Sure He Had Some Kind Of ' Attraction to Me ' .... I Didn't Wanna ' Assume ' ..... Just Because I Was Attracted ... doesn't Mean the Feeling Was Mutual....

Beings I Wasn't Getting Any ' Signals ' ( that I Know Of ..LOL )... I Had To Ask Him...
He's Known To Like ' Skinny ' Girls ... and I'm Far From ' Skinny ' ...

Because .... I'm Ready to ' Test Drive ' .....

MissAnn Has Needs .... Just Like Everyone Else.... I Gotta Try Out My New Body ... make sure Everything Works Properly Still...
Besides ... Isn't It Wise to Find Out If We Are ' Sexually ' Compatible ?

He Claims He's Attracted ..... Says He Likes My Personality .... We'll See...

We Have Set A ' Date ' For Saturday .... Normally I Would Be Frantic with Nerves ..... But I've Entered Into This Relationship with Everything In the Open ... I Used to Stay Silent and Just Wait .... No Expectations ...

The Devil on My Shoulder ... Keeps Saying ... "He Plays Chess.... So Who Knows If It's A New ' Game ' ...."

Something Tells Me He Won't Be a Disappointment
And If It's Not His ' Cup Of Tea ' .... He Can Move On... Hopefully We Can Still Remain Friends .... Cause I Do Enjoy Talking to Him ... He's Comical ...

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WHY CAN"T WE JUST NOT " GO THERE "...
Posted:Jun 19, 2017 8:47 pm
Last Updated:Jun 25, 2017 5:29 pm
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I'm Lying Here Wide Awake When I Know I Gotta Work In The Morning....

... Something's Bothering Me ... I've Gotta Find An Answer...

In One Of My Conversations With My New Friend ....My Father and Family Came Up .... It Is Still Very Difficult For Me To Reminisce.... Ya... It Was 2011... This Is 2017... He Said To Me " After a Certain Many Years ,, One May Need Professional Help...." Or something similar ...

Well.... I Immediately Took Offense .... And ALMOST Issued Him a RED Flag ....
But ... Sometimes I've Actually Learned To Think Before I Speak .... It Has Been 6 years....

When I Returned Home .... Thinking Back On It ... Why Am I So Very Emotional About It .... How Do I Get Rid Of It .... I've Tried Different scenarios in My Head .... Trying to Convince Myself It's Long Enough ... Nothing Works ... I Still Move Myself To Tears ... I Don't Feel Any Grudges .... I Just Don't Care Any More ... Is There A Cure .... to Erase That Mess .... Tell Me...

I Just Don't Know Why We Can't Just " Not Go ' THERE ' " .....
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LAWS OF ATTRACTION....
Posted:Jun 19, 2017 1:58 pm
Last Updated:Jun 25, 2017 7:45 am
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Well... I Got My Brakes On Today....
I Actually Visited This Guy The Day Before .... So He Could Evaluate What I Really Needed On The Van....

Now.... I Keep Asking Myself ... WTH is Going on ?! ...
I've Chatted With This Man For Hours .... We Click So Well.... He Seems to Even Read My Facial Thoughts.... He Makes Me Laugh...

I Was ,,, To Tell The Truth ... A Bit Worried ... He's Been A Bachelor for A While ... and Me Being Me ... Of Course I Worried About Every Little Thing ...
I Was Impressed By the Cleanliness Of The House ... as I've Seen Lots Of Bachelor Homes,,,, While Cleaning ,,, Not Dating ...lol... Many Bachelors Don't Bother Cleaning a Bathroom or Whatever ..... Some You Can Scrap the Dirt Off... Seriously ....

So... He's Not Lazy ... Even Though He Ran Out Of Toilet Paper ...lol...

I Had A Wonderful Time Chatting with Him ... and I Ask Myself .... what Is It That ' Draws ' Me To This Man... Strangely ...
Nothing About Him Is My ' Type '...

He's Not Tall... He Has Long Hair ,, Tattoos.... and I Believe I Saw 2 holes in his Ear ..... LMAO..... Omg...

I've Concluded... That It's His ' Soul ' ... His ' Insides ' ... I Like So Much.... What a Heart Of Gold .... We've Connected through Talking and Texting So Many Hours ....

I've Watched him For 2 Days ..... He Has Many Good Friends that Visit often ... and that's something to be expected for Such a Good Guy....
One Gives Me Very Bad Vibes... But Nothing That I Can't Handle ... and .. Besides ... He Makes Me Feel Totally Welcome .... so I'm Good ...

There's Just One Obstacle .... and Before You People Go Saying ' All You Women Find Something Wrong ' .... It's Just An Obstacle ... Not Something that can't change.... ( AND No I'm Not Here To Change Anyone Either )

It's Just An Important ' Obstacle ' For Me ... I've Lived with It Before... Raised Two Kids On My Own Because of ... and Watched a Man Deteriorate ..... I Just Don't Care To Get Romantically Involved With Some One ... It Is A Big Issue For Me ...

We Discussed It and He Seems Like He Understands ... So We Agreed To Take It One Day at A Time ...

He Is A Good Guy and I Believe He Has Good Intentions ...

I Thought It Important to Let Everyone Know That I ... MissAnn ,,,, Actually Met Someone In Person ... AND Survived.... ( I'm Still A Virgin To R-pe ...LMAO )
I Really Wasn't Worried about Him....
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KINDNESS..... In A Stranger ....
Posted:Jun 16, 2017 1:36 pm
Last Updated:Jun 25, 2017 7:42 am
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I've Gotten So Used To Men With An Ulterior Motive ..... That It Kinda Over Whelmed Me .... My Latest....Chat Friend ... That Is ....

I've Had A Very Difficult Month For Some Reason.... Van Is Like Falling Apart ... Causing Repair after Repair ... It's Sorta A Top Priority at this time ... So Money Is Dwindling that I've Saved For My Move...

I Had To Get An Oil Change And they Told Me My Brakes Were Way Below a Warning .... I thought... Well.. I had hoped it was just Fluid ...But No ... so Their Quote Was Like $300+...Oh No....

So ... My Mechanic Guy Is Going Out Of Town.... and I know I Have A full Schedule ... let alone Trying to Find A Place To Move ASAP.... With a Little Money left ..Ok...

I've Been Chatting With a Man ... I Didn't mention ... Because I figured He'd Be Gone In Less Than 3 Days.... like the others .... but ..The Man IS a Talker .... and His Life Is Similar to Mine ....
It Was Difficult ... Every time I have To Admit to Another Person that My Family Isn't so Great... It's Difficult not Knowing How People are Gonna react ... but He Understood and didn't Make a Big Deal out Of it... His Family Wasn't Perfect Either ....

My Life Has Some Ugly Years That No One Likes to Revisit.... But In Order For One To Know How I am Where I Am ... It's Necessary for some background ...

Well... This Guy Talked For Hours ... and Wasn't Boring .... So... I Just Went With It .... He's Very Sweet and Attentive ....He Stays In Contact Throughout the day .... and Night ....

He's From the Vanilla Site ... He says that I viewed his Profile ... But I think I Must Have an Evil Twin Flirting or something ... anyways ...

He's A Bit Young ... He Says He Likes My Blog ... He's A Little Skinny ...lol... But I'm Sure That Can Be cured ... and ( You are not gonna believe ) he's 5'7" .....

When I was Talking to him as I was leaving my oil change .... I told him how bad of luck I was having ... when it rains it pours ...

Then He Said " I Do Brakes " ..... Silence.... Waiting For The ' Payment Method ' ( I'm Sorry ,, that 's just How I was Thinking ) .... But He Came Back With ' 45 minutes and you'll be on your way ' .... I Said " No ... I Cant , How Much Would You Charge ? " ... He Said ' I Do For My Friends All The Time , No Problem at All ' ... He Even Took the Info For the Van And Got Me the Costs at the local auto parts store ... so I can pick up the pads on my way....

I Waited for ' Anything ' ... to sound like a ' trap ' ....lol.... And I Smack Myself .... I'm Always So Paranoid .... I Never Wanna Judge One Man With the Others...

I Think He Is For Real ... A Nice Person...

Knowing that My Safety is Important to Work and I need that Van In Good Shape ... I Told Him that I can Bring It Over On Monday ... If He Was Free... That's my only Day off... He said Ok....

Oh My... I'm A Bit Nervous ... But For The Van's Sake ... I Gotta DO IT... LOL... I'm actually a little nervous because we talk so freely and he has a sense of humor .... I'm waiting for a Red Flag .... I'll Have to Let You Know ...

For Now... I'm Kinda Taking One Day at A Time ... Praying to Make It Through Another Month .... another Day ...
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Seems Like I'm A BIG Flirt ... HUSSY !!
Posted:Jun 14, 2017 3:15 pm
Last Updated:Jun 19, 2017 2:02 pm
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I Suppose I Should Apologize To All Those Men That I've Flirted With....
If I'd Known !!

I Usually Always Answer a Bloggers' Email .... But I Do Not Answer All Emails Anymore ... I'm Sorry.... I Just Do Not Have The Time ....

I Prefer Spending My Free Time Responding to Comments ... Etc.... But It's Been Difficult Lately .....

So ... After a Fellow Blogger Told Me I Flirted With Him .... I Said ' No .. I Didn't '...
He Said To Check the Button ' People I've Flirted With ' ( I've Never Looked ,, Because I Never Flirted ) ..... AND There Are A Bunch Of People I Have Flirted With !!
OMG.....
I Did Not ... I Am Certain It's Just Another Game Alt Is Playing .... I'm Sorry .... I'm Not Really Looking ....

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